P.S. My Life is a Roller Coaster

P.S. My Life is a Roller coaster

Step in line and wait your turn

so you can experience what it's like to be me:

Feeling beautiful one day,

and ugly the next.

Having a lot of confidence,

and then destroying it with your own words and voice.

Never getting through a day without feeling insecure,

about the way you talk, feel, dress, laugh...

Always afraid of being honest,

because lies prevent pain.

Are you still waiting in line?

I can't promise that this line leads to safety.

I can't promise that you won't fall.

I can't promise that this feeling will end.

I can't promise that everything will be alright.

I can't promise that a friend will hold your hand the whole way...

My life is a roller coaster.

Twist and Turns with friendships,

sudden drops when I'm not ready to fall...

I'm holding on for my life,

Literally.

-Belle Rose

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Photo from: AuthenticGrowth.com Words talked over, my voice inside my head Eyes controlled me, my skin burned, cut, and dead Anxiety, told me the biggest lies Notebook pages, soaked up all my loud cries Every mistake, piled up on my chest Heart beat, fast pace, impossible to rest The attention, self-esteem took hold of It hurts to unwrap, what a gift is self-love.

Ink

I'm only writing because I have an urge. And all of these feelings, I will have to submerge. From the guilt after, telling someone my pain. The embarrassment, of my my borderline brain. The insecure lies, my anxiety finds. The weak side of me, reattached to their minds. When I'm all alone, those caring voices sink Today I'll save me, It's better done in ink. -Belle Rose

2009-2010

"You tore me apart, just look at my scars. Your clouds and hatred covered my bright stars." -Belle Rose

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