P.S. My Life is a Roller Coaster

P.S. My Life is a Roller coaster

Step in line and wait your turn

so you can experience what it's like to be me:

Feeling beautiful one day,

and ugly the next.

Having a lot of confidence,

and then destroying it with your own words and voice.

Never getting through a day without feeling insecure,

about the way you talk, feel, dress, laugh...

Always afraid of being honest,

because lies prevent pain.

Are you still waiting in line?

I can't promise that this line leads to safety.

I can't promise that you won't fall.

I can't promise that this feeling will end.

I can't promise that everything will be alright.

I can't promise that a friend will hold your hand the whole way...

My life is a roller coaster.

Twist and Turns with friendships,

sudden drops when I'm not ready to fall...

I'm holding on for my life,

Literally.

-Belle Rose

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Feel

I hope your heart, will spin out of control Dizzy and sick, falling in a deep hole. Deep in sadness, always never enough Losing your worth, not a diamond, but rough. I hope you cry, until your brown eyes close Dream then wake up, by a thorn of a rose. Smile all day, then feel low when alone Hear one song, then feel the cuts that were sown. Smell memories, of fresh cookies and love vanilla, fruit, or all of the above. But most of all, I pray that you can heal My broken heart does not want you to feel... How I feel. -Belle Rose

Ink

I'm only writing because I have an urge. And all of these feelings, I will have to submerge. From the guilt after, telling someone my pain. The embarrassment, of my my borderline brain. The insecure lies, my anxiety finds. The weak side of me, reattached to their minds. When I'm all alone, those caring voices sink Today I'll save me, It's better done in ink. -Belle Rose

Right

Emotionally unintelligent, unsympathetic and cruel. Self destructive, dangerous monster, definition of a fool. Unstable, insecure, and child-like, full of unbearable traits. An untreatable virus, infection, Bitch, holding you down like weights. Defensive, insane and manipulative, distorting reality. Selfish, conversations unproductive, immature, too care-free. I made a mistake, now I am immoral, fist down, I learned not to fight. I'm an asshole, a terrible person, don't fret, you are, again, right. -Belle Rose

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