P.S. My Life is a Roller Coaster

P.S. My Life is a Roller coaster

Step in line and wait your turn

so you can experience what it's like to be me:

Feeling beautiful one day,

and ugly the next.

Having a lot of confidence,

and then destroying it with your own words and voice.

Never getting through a day without feeling insecure,

about the way you talk, feel, dress, laugh...

Always afraid of being honest,

because lies prevent pain.

Are you still waiting in line?

I can't promise that this line leads to safety.

I can't promise that you won't fall.

I can't promise that this feeling will end.

I can't promise that everything will be alright.

I can't promise that a friend will hold your hand the whole way...

My life is a roller coaster.

Twist and Turns with friendships,

sudden drops when I'm not ready to fall...

I'm holding on for my life,

Literally.

-Belle Rose

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Ink

I'm only writing because I have an urge. And all of these feelings, I will have to submerge. From the guilt after, telling someone my pain. The embarrassment, of my my borderline brain. The insecure lies, my anxiety finds. The weak side of me, reattached to their minds. When I'm all alone, those caring voices sink Today I'll save me, It's better done in ink. -Belle Rose

2009-2010

"You tore me apart, just look at my scars. Your clouds and hatred covered my bright stars." -Belle Rose

Hug

Hand over my mouth, your face didn’t like what I said. Sorry,just kidding, I’ll punish myself instead. I went way too far, I didn’t put on my filter. I’m just being me, tear me down like a twister. Destroy my shelter, I don’t like the real me. I'll apologize , quickly, energetically. You call me awful, give my heart a great tug. Forget you, I’m done, I’ll give myself a big hug. -Belle Rose

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