Inconvenient

Inconvenient

I never missed this feeling.

I thought I scared it away.

I was finally okay.

Happy.

Confident.

Beautiful.

But it found me.

At the most inconvenient time. 

When he is not here.

When I can't talk to him everyday.

When I can't write him a simple note.

I know he'll listen,

I know he'll care,

but it feels like day one.

I'm afraid to tell him...again.

How the hell am I supposed to defeat this without him?

-Belle Rose