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Voice
I am afraid of my voice.

I am so confident before I speak,
but then I make a sound.
My voice is nothing but a stupid sound,
worthless and confusing. 

Someone grabs my throat and I forget how to speak.
They choke me until I cannot breathe,
and all of my words come out weak.

Attempting to save myself from embarrassment
I start to doubt myself,
 and pretend to think that I am wrong.
. 
"You are dumb, you are incapable of understanding" 

And then I daydream about giving up, so I won't feel pain anymore.
I lay there, motionless, trying to capture this feeling.
No pain. No worries. 
Insecurities are demolished. 

I am afraid of my voice. 
But I am more afraid of Yours.

-Belle Rose 

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