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Control
Depressed,
Lonely, 
Scarred and Rejected.
I cannot Control how I am affected.

The mean and brutal comments, and the words
that cut me deep,
sometimes shallow, but it is enough to make me bleed.

I remember everything, when I look in the mirror.
I see the words on my body, and the temporary damage.

Temporary--
The marks are gone, but the emotions stay.
Permanent. Forever.
Always there to strangle my confidence.
It will never let me go.

Thoughts are damaging my vulnerable mind;
I am lying on the floor,
Next to my sharpest friend

My controlling friend.

I cannot Control how I am affected...

-Belle Rose




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